Get rid of it.
Entering adulthood, some things just drag! Like finding a good job, finishing school, finding a decent partner, planning your life…… finding your happiness. It wasn’t until recently that I really became aware and present with the chains that bounded me to my (old) ways. And by chains I refer to old friends, old neighborhoods, and old relationships. I’ve experienced a lot of warning signs and many obvious reasons why I was ready for some change in my life. Once my days became unbearable, I knew it was time.
“…I dragged myself on.”
We wake up to some of these subconscious emotions:
Similar to a hamster on a wheel – round and round. You wake up, and you’re already spinning.
The running and the waiting has you needing a vacation already at 6am on a Tuesday morning.
And then some days you wake up drained from the many days of waking up waiting, running, and being so anxious you can barely function. Your eyes are heavy, your head is heavy and all you want is sleep.
These were some of the things that began to build up. And ‘build up’ to me feels like an oxymoron. It felt more like quicksand dragging me down daily. And every step I took to try and get out, I just found myself either in the same spot or an even lower spot.
“…thoughts in my mind pass frequently. Thoughts that I wish would just pass without acknowledging me. Thoughts I want to just skip and forget about.”
How do we relieve ourselves from reaching the ‘heavy’? We relieve ourselves from the toxins.
- Toxic people.
People that don’t make you feel good. People that once were friends of yours, co-workers that gossip, friends that use you, people that take more energy from you rather than supplying you with any positive stimulation. Leave them behind.
- Toxic foods.
Our diets do have a big part in our emotions. And as we get older we will find that the milt-vitamins and the b-12 vitamins HELP. Eating Wendy’s at 2am isn’t as fun as it once was sophomore year in high school – especially when our jeans stop going all the way up. Choose water.
- Toxic jobs.
Do you have or have you had that one job that you dread going to? That once job that on your ‘heavy’ days you fantasize about being broke on a beach instead of working there for a paycheck? Start the search and don’t stop.
- Toxic Friday nights.
Partying is fun without the hangovers or nostalgia. Partying WAS fun until the extra weight, the extra hangover, and the extra hole in your pocket. Watch Netflix sometimes.
- Toxic regrets.
Reach a point in your life where you let go of any and all grudges. Your regrets weigh you down like anchors and subconsciously you probably dream about them. Let it go.
“My eyes blood shot dry, my lungs heavily held; lack of sleep is written all over my face. So I woke up anyways. I started my day…”
And that is dirty laundry. You can wash it twice, but it gets dirty again. These are a few things that I became more and more aware of and a few things I find myself changing.
Once I became aware of these feelings, I knew I was still growing. I also knew that these feelings were going to continue to resurface or try to resurface and I knew I had to recognize them before they consumed me. And they would consume me if I let them.
By: Lindsey Miranda